The Calm Before The Storm...

Sitting in a quiet coffee house, I, Sarah, not Jana, feel an overwhelming sense of calm. Is this the result of having two days off in a row? Perhaps. Is it the result of sleeping for more than 7 hours the past 2 nights? Maybe... Or is it because an artist will always ultimately find peace with what they've created, and rests\ easy knowing that they've done good..? I vote for that one. ;-)

The six of us ladies have been living with this project for over a year now, and while it has grown and changed, failed and succeeded, it still remains the passionate piece of theater that we all initially came together to create. We've pushed ourselves in every sense; as actors, directors, ensemble members, producers, costumers, prop managers, set designers, script editors, PR agents, everything. We've created something to be proud of. We've done good.

Every artist comes to a point in their work where they can choose one of many options. They can abandon their art, deeming it hopeless and unworthy of their efforts. They can continue to challenge said art, searching for deeper meaning and forcing it to be better than it already is. They can put it to rest for a moment, knowing full well they will be returning to it when "inspiration" hits. Or they can step back, admire what they've created, and give it away to the world, allowing it to impact and affect all who come into contact with it. The best part of performance art..? There's one more option: To step back, admire what you've created, and while trusting that it's strong and solid, allow yourself to experience your own art. You can actually actively contribute to the direct impact your art is having on the world. What a thought!

This is the point I believe I am personally at. I'm confident in the scaffolding we as artists have put up, and I am now ready to step back, admire it, and then actively contribute to it's impact on the world. I find peace in this.

I now leave you to watch the last half of 'Harold & Maude,' which I began yesterday, but was forced to take an intermission as my computer died. Have a great day & be sure to smile at someone! ;-)